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[notabricklayer]

It's late afternoon and warm up in the hayloft, the sounds of the animals below muffled to almost indistinction, dust-motes dancing in the ambient light.

It would be a fantastic place for a nap.

It is an even better place to one space-faring doctor to re-make the close acquaintance of a beguiling woman he met in a bar.

Or at least, that's how it would read if it were a romance novel.

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[notabricklayer.livejournal.com]

He chuckles - that one had been used and misused in his class as they approached Boards thoroughly.

"Oh, definitely. Choosing a doctor is an important process, you know. You have to be very thorough to make sure you find the one you want."

[olyabird.livejournal.com]

She just lifts her chin, smiling like the cat who's eaten the canary.

"I already know which one I want," she says, holding the back door of the bar open for him.

[notabricklayer.livejournal.com]

"A fact I, for one, am deeply grateful for." He allows as he ducks through the door, squinting a little as his eyes re-adjust to the relative gloom within. He does take a close look around, on the way to the Bar, but for different things than many others - injured crewmates, and Klingons make the list, other sorts of threats he's not so wary about.

[olyabird.livejournal.com]

She rolls her neck as she enters, stretching out a little, glancing around. She picks her usual booth, a dark corner with a good view of the room, and settles in, lighting another cigarette from the first.

"Let's have a drink, while we wait for the food."

She waves at a rat who nods and scurries off, returning momentarily with a bottle of vodka and two glasses.

[notabricklayer.livejournal.com]

He slides in across from her, raising an eyebrow at the vodka.

It is only fair, he supposes, after the whiskey the time before. So he takes the bottle and pours with an expert hand.

"What are we drinking to this time, darlin'?"

[olyabird.livejournal.com]

Olga generally doesn't need a reason to drink, but today, today is different.

She holds up her glass, looking across at him, studying his face. She feels lighter than she's felt in years, just looking at him.

"To us."

[notabricklayer.livejournal.com]

McCoy smiles, clinking his glass against hers, golden sparks reflected in the clear alcohol from the embers of her cigarette.

"To us." He agrees warmly, knocking his shot back like the water it appears to be.

And boy doggy, doesn't that stuff burn all the way down? He makes a mental note to perhaps take it a bit slower, next time.

[olyabird.livejournal.com]

She knocks hers back just as easily, clearly not even feeling the burn except peripherally. Clearly, her lungs are not the only organ that get regularly abused by her vices.

The rat appears at her elbow again, and she gestures him to her companion. "The good doctor is ordering for us. Takeaway, please." The rat nods and turns, pen at the ready.

[notabricklayer.livejournal.com]

His first order is a bit of a wheeze as his larynx protests the alcohol burns. He's not exactly a shots guy.

"Fried chicken with buttermilk biscuits, peanut slaw, and watermelon." The rat eyes him, eyes her, shrugs, and writes it all down. McCoy resists making comments about diseases carried by rats in retaliation.

[olyabird.livejournal.com]

Olga does not laugh. It's rude to laugh at Americans who can't keep up with her. She knows this. But her eyes give her away, no doubt.

She refills their glasses with a practised hand.

"Ask," she says, and maybe he can hear a certain warmth in her voice. She doesn't often open this door.

[notabricklayer.livejournal.com]

This glass he chooses to savor, rather than slug back. At least, that's the official press release.

"If there was an emergency, and you needed medical attention, what do I need to know?" It, perhaps, isn't the most romantic question, but it is the one he needs answered. It bothers him, not knowing these things. It's why he nags Spock at every opportunity to get him more information on Vulcan physiology.

[olyabird.livejournal.com]

Strangely, she's not as surprised by this question as she thought she might have been. Still, it's a puzzling question to have to answer. There isn't much that can touch her, physically, and anything that can? Well, suffice it to say, there wouldn't be enough left over for him to treat.

She stubs her cigarette out and sips her drink, clearly pondering her answer.

Eventually, she shakes her head a little. "I heal, but it takes," she holds up a hand, palm up, fingers curling in, "an essence you can't provide. It comes from all around. Mmm. Positive energy. Happiness. Joy."

That intangible fuel of the Light. Love and hope and all that nonsense.

[notabricklayer.livejournal.com]

Well. Isn't that just a little bit frustrating? Or a lot, he admits to himself, knowing exactly what he's like in a crisis. If he can work on it, fix things in some way, no matter how little... he's fine. He's better than fine. It's what he thrives on. But to be stuck helpless, standing by?

There's a memory of a few last moments at a bedside in San Francisco - he shunts it back to the dark corner it lives in, forever.

"I do believe in fairies, I do I do?" He asks, wryly.

[olyabird.livejournal.com]

Her eyes narrow, and she leans forward a bit, hands curled around her shot glass. The shimmer of his memories stings like salt in a fresh wound.

"Lyonya," she begins, and hesitates. "I am not a god. I can die." She thinks she can, anyway. She long ago ceased fearing the day when that might happen. "But it will not be on your watch."

It's much more likely that she will give up on this world and simply walk into the Gloom, never to return.

[notabricklayer.livejournal.com]

He swallows, and looks away. He's never claimed he's dealt well with death, and with the way he fights it, he probably never well.

"I'll hold you to that."

[olyabird.livejournal.com]

The moment he looks away, her voice echoes across his thoughts, as if she could reach out and pull him back to her.

Lyonya.

She has to push down a wave of righteous anger, and maybe he can feel the heat of that as well. She tries to keep it out of her voice, and maybe she succeeds.

"It's far more likely that I will lose you -- long before you lose me."

[notabricklayer.livejournal.com]

He looks back, a bit hangdog, but also a touch...

Well.

This is something he cannot change. He couldn't for the family he once had. He can't now.

"I'm sorry, Olga. This is... I can't not. It is what I am." He has been fighting death so long, and so hard, it's become personal.

[olyabird.livejournal.com]

"And this is what I am," she counters, her tone still fierce. There are things far worse than death, in her experience. And she faces them, grinds them back into the dust, binds them in the palm of her hand and sends them back into the abyss.

"Don't waste your time worrying about me." Her tone gentles somewhat. "And if you need to worry, then, know that I was born to a mother just as you were."

That she can walk between the rain drops (and bullets) is completely incidental to that fact.

[notabricklayer.livejournal.com]

He lays his hand, palm up, on the table. An apology, perhaps, for the future, some future time that she'll be hurt and he'll be nearly out of his mind.

"Well. We certainly are the pair, aren't we?"

[olyabird.livejournal.com]

She looks at his hand, still simmering with indignation. I'd find it hard to be casual.

"I don't know what we are," she says, the same air of cool diffidence returning. Perhaps he recognises it for the truth it hides, the way she uses it to shield herself from other wounds, these more deep and slower to heal than anything that could happen to her physical body.

Eventually, she does lay her fingers across his, just a light touch. Her eyes fall to where they're touching, and her voice is soft, tinged with sorrow.

"I won't be caged again. Not for you or any man."

If that's what he wants from her, then they will both be disappointed.

[notabricklayer.livejournal.com]

"I couldn't cage you, darlin'." It's honest, and sad. Not for himself - for her. How could caring and worry be so easily translated into something confining?

His marriage ended because she said he didn't worry enough about her. Didn't care enough. He feels it would be the height of irony if now, at the start of something beautiful, he cares too much.

[olyabird.livejournal.com]

She meets his gaze, myriad emotions warring behind her dark eyes.

"What I do -- I won't lie to you, it is dangerous. But it is necessary. And it is as much who I am as your calling."

Her hand alights on his palm, her fingers interlacing with his.

"And this," she breathes, letting the warmth of his hand penetrate her skin. "This is -- unexpected."

To say the least.

[notabricklayer.livejournal.com]

"You don't have to stop for me. Not any more than you could expect me to transfer to a safe posting, like Starfleet General, or be home for dinner at five every night." This he understands, unfair rules where none could possibly be accepted.

[olyabird.livejournal.com]

She laughs, a dry sound under her breath, and squeezes his hand, a long steady grip.

(Has it been so long since she's had someone to hold onto?)

"Ask," she repeats, looking up at him again, her expression open, vulnerable.

[notabricklayer.livejournal.com]

He returns her hold, the tension he hadn't known he was letting into his shoulders falling away. He was worried - worried that she would bolt, leaving him alone again.

"What do you wish I'd ordered for dinner?" He shies away from more serious topics for the moment.